Sometimes it's just time...

There are times in life where you get to this place, after a long journey, where it's just time to let it go. Leave it behind. Bury it with a nod and a smile and slowly walk away knowing for the time in your life that it was front and center and getting all your love, affection and attention that it was well served. One day you wake up and you realize that time has passed. And you almost go through a mourning for it. You want to hold on, because for some time it may have been all you've known. You "grew up" there. How do you walk away from THAT? Well, when there is no more growth that can come from being in that "place". I am a believer that growth can occur anywhere, so to say that may be an over generalization. To believe that the healthy kind of growth that we all want and need can occur in that same time and place that has past is a bit of denial, though. For a long time I was in that very state. Completely denying to myself that the time had come and gone..."of course there is a way to bring this back! I just have to change my attitude and find a source for inspiration!" When you are in denial, you will make yourself believe anything until you get very sick. Sick of yourself. Sick of who you're becoming. And I have DEFINITELY been there. Then the day comes that you awaken. And you just decide. And the clouds part. And the sun starts to peak through. And you start living your life again for you. You get up and you go walking, and you find a new path to take, and you turn around shovel in hand and decide it's time to throw that last bit of dirt on yesterday. Acceptance. Release. Freedom. I have arrived there, and the sunshine is getting brighter....just a few more steps to take until I'm on that new pathway!